WOO! go long arse hiatus...es. >__> WEWT! Anyways, I'm back and better than ever! Or atleast *I* like to think so. Alots happened since my last journal entry, too much to put in a single entry. Lemme sum it up for ya........nah. Nvm. Oh! I got a job now! Like, a legit job. Benefits and taxes and all that good, grownup stuff :: puffs out chest importantly::

I still draw though. LOTS. o___o Probably more than I should if I don't wanna get fired XD Oh well. Onto the artiness!!

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Where're you off to?
Such a hurried girl.
Is something chasing you?
Everythings spinning round in circles.
Is it the world or is it you?
There's no use trying to stop this.
There's no use trying to make it go away.
Before you disappear,
just give it time.

What're you hiding from?
What will you think will happen
if you see this one through?
There's no use trying to stop this
There's no use trying to make it go away
Before you disappear,
just give it time.

Where're you off to in such a hurry, girl?
Give it a little time...
Give it a little time...

sometimes, it feels as if life is just one never ending race.
I'm running and running and running, and I've been running for so long I've forgotten what it is I'm running for, or where I'm running TO. Am I even moving anymore?

Bobby died today. 8:13 AM. He had gone into the hospital yesterday complaining of stomach pains and difficulty breathing. The doctor called me at 6 this morning after Bobby had a seizure and I was with him every second until the end...It was the second person I had to watch die beneath my fingertips.

He was scared at first. Or maybe he was just reflecting what I was feeling. It was JUST like Sarah, only in full, horrifying color. But looking into those beautiful grey eyes, I knew he knew the truth behind everything we'd been lying to eachother about. Everything we'd been lying to OURSELVES about;Nothing was ever the same after Jason left us, there's no debating that. No one will EVER be able to replace him in our hearts. I don't know why we even tried...

There's ...just nothing I can say. I don't know WHAT to say...Bobby, for as much of an asshole he liked to be, was my best friend. He was there through out EVERYTHING. And despite the ugliness of our past, remained my friend.

Maybe the reason I'm so sad is because this truly is the closing of that chapter of my life. No one else knew Jason, Luke, Jonathan, no one can reminisce with me about all the stupid things we did together or how desperately i loved each and every one of those boys. No one will ever understand what they meant to me and how big a part of my life they are. With Bobby's passing, I think I lost the last bit of hope that I could turn around my life, that I could keep something from my past, in my future...

I don't feel the loss or emptiness as badly as the others. I think I'm numb to the pain. So many precious people in my life have left me behind and I'm just ...so tired.

How much can one heart take?


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Robert Charles Lekowski
November 22, 1985
April 29, 2008

"And if you ever change your mind, you know I'm not hard to find. And if you ever find the time, you know I'm not far behind. And if you ever need someone...I'll still be waiting."

I'm CENTIMETERS away from slaughtering my computer. So, sorry for the lack of updates. I got drawings comin' outta my arse, but I can't do much since my scanner decided to BREAAAAAAAAAAK ::smashes things...like my scanner::
Sooo I bought a new HP Officejet, BUT I can't upload the right driver. I'm close to tears @_@

so soon as I figure it out, I'll be uploading a load of new stuff. PRAY FOR ME >_<


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Right! So! I WAS gonna submit a Devil!Jimmy/Angel!Justen drawing in celebration for Halloween, but my scanner decided to be a little shit and now REFUSES to work. EUGH! Drama queen.
So anyway, I wanted to post SOMETHING, so here's the tag i got from Miss

I can already tell I'm TOTALLY not gonna have a life...


(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( x) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
( x) Airplane
Total: 10

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
(x ) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth (i am dressed as Sarah tonight!!!!!)
(x ) Saw
(x ) Saw II
(x) White Noise
(x ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 21

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 31

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x)Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil: Apocalypse
(x) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 41

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( x)White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total so far: 52

(x ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x)Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
(x )KING KONG
Total so far: 61

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
(x ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 75

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
( x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
( )I Am Sam
(x ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 83

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x)The Grudge
(x)The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 97

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
(x ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x )Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
( x) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
(x) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Curious George
Total so far: 111

(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
(x ) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
(x ) My Boss's Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 123

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x )Mars Attacks
(x ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China (OMG haven't watched that in FOREVER ^^)
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 134

(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x )Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x )Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
(x) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
(x) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
( ) Shrek 3
Total so far: 152

(x)Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
(x) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total so far: 160

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 166

( ) Baseketball
( x) Hostel
( ) Hostel 2
( ) Waiting for Guffman
(x) House of 1000 Corpses
(x) Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
(x) Highlander
( x) Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 173

( )The Jacket
( x) Kung Fu Hustle
(x ) Shaolin Soccer
( )Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x )Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 179

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
(x) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld
Total so far: 185

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
(x) Mortal Kombat
(x )Wolf Creek
(x )Kingdom of Heaven
(x) The Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
(x) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( )Army of Darkness
Total so far: 192

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 198 (jesus man o_o

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Animatrix
( )Evil Dead
( )Evil Dead 2
(x ) Team America: World Police
( x)Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal
Total so far: 206

( ) Asazel
(x) King Arthur
(x) Toy story
(x) Toy Story 2
( ) Daylight

Totaly: 209


ok, see, TOLD you...i have no life x___x

Been down one more time,
and I'm wondering why these little black clouds seem to like JUST me.
Wasting time
and I'd rather be fine.
Think I'll take a walk outside,
find a rainbow and a smile,
cause they're free.

Because maybe tomorrow,
is when I find my way home...

Let me look around at a beautiful life.
We've been on the other side of up,
been the inside of out,
but we breathe.
I want a moment and an open mind.
I want to swim in the ocean,
I want to take some time for ME.

Because maybe tomorrow,
I'll find my way home.

It's never as easy as it seems.
Its better to have loved and lost.
The grass is greener.
Stop to smell the roses.
Beauty is within.
And don't do tomorrow, what you can do today.

Because maybe tomorrow,
We'll find our way home.

in loving memory
Henry D. Anchondo

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